Saying Goodbye...

I haven’t been ranting for a long time now..but all of a sudden I just have this urge to write a little something. Nothing much to do in Taiping but to sit down and ponder! Life’s been alright ever since I’ve last written, but some things have indeed taken a twist…some for the better others for the worst…

Anywaysss yesterday I had to say Goodbye..AGAIN….and did I ever tell you that I so HATE to say goodbyesss…my cousin sis left for the UK to complete her final year in law. Which is GOODNEWS I know…..but watching her leave just makes me feel like crying…its so hard to say goodbye. But I know…let it go…she’s going to a new place new opportunity new city altogether. its both exciting and scarry for her. But I felt like a part of me was bleeding. Not that I live with her or talk to her alllll the time, but its just that it suddenly hit me that this part of family seems so farfetched..But I know I know…she’s going to be fine, everythings going to be allright and in no time she’d do well and comeback and become all that she wants to be! But know what…convince myself all that I want…I still HATE GOODBYES~ eikkkssss:P

I’ve been coming back to Taiping kinda often these days… kinda tiring, but i guess its brought about family time. I enjoy the journey back the fellowship that i have with andrew, mum and dad...just to catch up a little exchange views...and share toughts! It's nice ...now that we're all grown up and during the weekends everyone's so caught up with their everyday lives..that we seldom interact...so the journey home's reallly uplifting...

hmnn haih but then the reason why we've constantly been travelling is because cancer took its place again…this time around my Grandma's diagnosed with stomach cancer... sad but learning to accept. We’ve decided to only conduct pain management. Which is a better option as she has gone into the final stages of it and there’s more to life than putting her thru Chemo, rather spend every weekend going out for dinner and staying home.

From being a super outspoken lady, she's now become all mellow, not because she’s relaxed but more so because she just doesn’t seem to have anything left inside her body. She doesn’t seem comfortable. Her body's trying hard to fight against the iritating cancer cells by itself...and that is definitely tiring and slowing her immune system. Cancer, the silent killer. but its good that her pain killers work and she doesn’t feel pain. Praise God for that! I only wish that when she leaves us she’d come to know The God that I know and she’d go to some place better in a simplier way….no more pain…all’s at peace.

This weekend was nice, she was having one of her goood days, we went out for dinner and she ate more than ever, but we're all abit worried tooo at the same time as my cousin left fo UK, and much of my grandma feels that she won't be able to see her again...so difficult to take it all in at one time i guess, but wert to do..life's like that, be strong...we must move on..continue our journey...

Hmnnn but Im not complaining:) …I know I know! It’s sometimes so easy to look at the things that go wrong in our lives and compare them with the things that go right in other people’s lives and to sit and curse awhile. Its easy, but I still don’t really belief in doing it thou. There’s more than meets the eye. …Life’s goood if you choose to be happy. Im sure everyone’s going thru private pains. Not all things will go our way..but so what…at least some sure did…and those that did not, ahhh it went senget for the better!

There's so much that i want to rant about...heehehe will do it late! :)